There's no escape from pain

This is the first thing that I think about when I wake up & the last thing I think about before I go to sleep....




It also takes up an awful lot of my thoughts during the day.

Why is it that Chronic pain takes over every part of my life? It feels like I have no privacy from my pain, I cant hide anything away from it. There's just no escape! I can't plan a day out with the family & pretend that the pain isn't there because it always rears it's ugly head at the worst possible time. Just when my boys want me to go for a paddle in the sea or take them for a ride on the dodgem cars. Planning to go for a swim at our local swimming pool becomes a lottery with disaster looming around every corner. Even something as simple as going to church with my family on a Sunday morning becomes an epic struggle which more often than not ends in complete failure.

These are the reasons why I feel that I am such a burden to my family & friends.